.:FS.Räîn:.

Last night, well, actually it's in the wee hours of this morning, all three of us were still in the living room watching this JDrama series when in the midst of watching, things happened:

Right at the corner of my eyes, where I can see both Xiu and Bao who were siting diagonally across my right, I saw the two of them raising their arms. Both raised their arms together spontaneously! Just as I thought it was strange of them to raise one of their arms for no reason, I had a glimpse of something in their hands... its one slipper in each hand!!

I turned my head to look at them clearly, true enough, they were indeed holding their arms up with a slipper in each of their hands, in a stance like that of one who is aiming to hit something. ITS SO FUNNY!! I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING!!

Hahaha, well, its all because of the little bug that flew past them (which I missed noticing) and its just their reflexes against such flying bugs!! But its so funny!! What's even better was the bug-hitting-show that was put-up when the bug flew down towards one of them and all hell break loose.. Armed with a slipper in their hands, they sprang from the floor and were swatting at the bug and at one point, the bug went 'blurred' and headed for Xiu's slipper, and then goes a 'thud-thud', down goes the bug after being hit Xiu and then bounced off the wall before landing on the floor.

Victory for the spontaneous bug busters!!

Trust me... if only I can paint the picture... it is really hilarious!!

FS.Rain

One of my most recent dreams that I can ever recall is about this 'idol' that me and xiu supports. I won't talk about it here as I have already done so in my Wretch blog... I was just thinking... Are there any underlying messages from the dreams that we have? The old chinese saying always depict it as a result of what you have been going through recently and what you have been thinking of frequently. But is it always so? I'm glad that I don't always remember what I dreamt of, if I am able to do so, it usually affects the quality of my sleep.
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Life?!
I started having thoughts of Life ever since I was about the age 6 or so. If I didn't remember wrongly, it was sort of spurred by my drunk father who behaved, looked like, and sounded like he was dying... I was really scared... scared of 'Death', then.

What exactly is Life? My ex-classmate Shuang used to love to ask me this everyday, or almost everyday... "Pbang, What's Life?" Each time, I find myself giving her a different answer. I, am still unable to answer this question.

I find it a waste of time, occasionally when this question and these thoughts came up in my mind, for us to be born into the world, live through life with all the struggles, some had more, some went smooth sailing... But ultimately, we die. I always like to conclude it as "We are born to death" or "born to die" or "born and destined to die". It seems so, when simply put. The next thing that came up is "If so, why the trouble?". Why do we go through the phases and when its time for harvest, we have reached prime time, the golden age... and soon, THE END. What for?

At the point of death, everything's gone. You will cease to exist physically. What about your feelings? What about all the thoughts that we have while we were alive? Everything that we see, the senses of touch, the songs and melodys that we hear, it is so real. But what happens when I am dead? Or how is it when I die? Is there the spiritual me? Do I become a ghost? Though I have no doubts that these things exist as a form of 'after-life', but I don't feel it substantially. Knowing it is not enough to convince me that it is not too bad... Whenever thoughts of Life & also Death comes up, I felt an emptiness... I'm not sure if I am describing it correctly, but I do feel a hollowness towards the whole thing about being alive. It is scary, because it is something unknown, something that's alien. And I can't imagine, and I do not wish to imagine what it will be for me when my love ones 'depart'. It is saddening.
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Well well well...
I went overboard, I guess...
But I can't help but to jot it down somewhere...